I Almost Forgot I Do Not Love You Anymore
It was today, after our fleeting, polite meeting, that I again remembered that I no longer love you . We have lost everything that once made us special. The kisses on the red light, the way we held hands when we walked, the cute goodbye hugs …
Everything that made us dream of building a better world together has disappeared. The things we thought were ours, and designed just for the two of us. The things we thought we could overcome… These things look down on us now, reminding us that we were simply not strong enough to get through it.
For a moment I almost forgot what happened. But I realize right away that we no longer result in one; we only result in two. My mind still has a hard time believing in the idea and bravely trying to brighten up my days with the memories of when we were together…
Even when my mind tries to fool me, I no longer love you . Our story has already come to an end. I ran out of willpower to keep fighting for something that might not be right. You could not make me smile anymore. I do not love you anymore because you have not added anything to my story.
Everything we experienced had its time to shine
When our eyes meet again, and we laugh at an internal joke together… When our special language without words works again, and we remember something we experienced together. Then I might forget. Maybe I want to doubt myself. But then I have to come back to reality and accept that everything we experienced together has already had its time to shine.
The past had its chance, and it did not write a story. We were a story that ended, that we lived passionately, and without rationing the love we felt for each other. Time did not give us a break to look ahead and see what came. We lived fully, through the good and the bad. And that’s exactly why I do not love you anymore .
We continue to encounter each other. We still share a few moments. But they will no longer be ours. They are no longer filled with love and magic. These moments will not be bricks in a path we are building towards something bigger, something better.
These moments will no longer be an indispensable part of my life. In my memory, they will just mess around or join the rest of my memories. Things that are not worth that much anymore. Because while I can sometimes forget it, I no longer love you .
No more “I love you”, no more love…
The time to say “I love you” is behind us. The time to say “I love you” without saying a word is over. Now there are only polite kisses on the cheek and friendly greetings left, the kind you give even if you have no love in your heart.
I almost forgot that I do not love you anymore when we met earlier… but when you told me that you are now going through life with someone else, I realized that these kisses now belong to someone else’s lips. I almost forgot, but no; I do not love you anymore.
Now I just want to wish you luck. In the meantime, I keep the small fragments of you that still belong to me. That holds for me. Even though I am no longer the owner of “I love you”, I sometimes forget that I no longer love you. ..
